thought it was some self-flagellation bullshit at first a way to punish yourself seems appropriately fucked up enough for you
( there's not a familiar face in the crowd. water hits his lashes, splashing down his cheek. felix thumbs it away and looks up. a leaky pipe, just above. it's oddly grounding, but it doesn't stop his trembling.
his responses come mercilessly quick. )
maybe you got daddy issues, i thought, that'd be super fucking cliche maybe i'm an enormously misplaced stand-in for all the shit you lost and can't get over maybe you look at me and see everything you wanna forget because it puts you back in the pod all over again, t-minus ten seconds from a drop but that's too complicated, isn't it? i'm overthinking it i do that sometimes
no, i think what fucks you up the absolute most is that you don't fucking know why you kissed me back but you know you liked it and your brain will kill itself cycling around that shit, unable to make sense of it sometimes shit doesn't make sense but we do it anyway like you biting my lip and putting your hand on the back of my neck like you knowing you'd fucking do it again you fucking pussy
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a way to punish yourself
seems appropriately fucked up enough for you
( there's not a familiar face in the crowd. water hits his lashes, splashing down his cheek. felix thumbs it away and looks up. a leaky pipe, just above. it's oddly grounding, but it doesn't stop his trembling.
his responses come mercilessly quick. )
maybe you got daddy issues, i thought, that'd be super fucking cliche
maybe i'm an enormously misplaced stand-in for all the shit you lost and can't get over
maybe you look at me and see everything you wanna forget because it puts you back in the pod all over again, t-minus ten seconds from a drop
but that's too complicated, isn't it? i'm overthinking it
i do that sometimes
no, i think what fucks you up the absolute most is that you don't fucking know why you kissed me back but you know you liked it and your brain will kill itself cycling around that shit, unable to make sense of it
sometimes shit doesn't make sense but we do it anyway
like you biting my lip and putting your hand on the back of my neck
like you knowing you'd fucking do it again
you fucking pussy