felix looks at him, silent. then, after a moment: ) Still am, Terrence.
( his delivery is nearly careful, like a warning. he still is. he always will be, as long as they share the same city and space. to ephemera, to crais, to drake, to anyone who crosses him wrong and wants a piece. always expanding, he thinks again. he'll never run out of pieces to give.
he lowers his eyes, stepping around ephemera to circle from behind and examine his rig in full detail. it bothers him. not the sex. he'd have jerked ephemera off in that elevator on the first goddamn day if it meant they got out of there faster. just another role to be played, another job to complete. but ephemera didn't kill him in that fucking hallway, and he stopped felix from tapping out in that fucking arena when it'd have been easier to just let it go.
it was a mistake. everything about every single one of their interactions is a mistake, including this moment, and more than anything felix doesn't understand why. he fucking hates it. he thinks about it until it makes him nauseous, and then he drinks to quiet the chaos. why. )
That day, in the arena, you stopped me. ( his voice is soft, spoken at ephemera's back. ) Why?
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felix looks at him, silent. then, after a moment: ) Still am, Terrence.
( his delivery is nearly careful, like a warning. he still is. he always will be, as long as they share the same city and space. to ephemera, to crais, to drake, to anyone who crosses him wrong and wants a piece. always expanding, he thinks again. he'll never run out of pieces to give.
he lowers his eyes, stepping around ephemera to circle from behind and examine his rig in full detail. it bothers him. not the sex. he'd have jerked ephemera off in that elevator on the first goddamn day if it meant they got out of there faster. just another role to be played, another job to complete. but ephemera didn't kill him in that fucking hallway, and he stopped felix from tapping out in that fucking arena when it'd have been easier to just let it go.
it was a mistake. everything about every single one of their interactions is a mistake, including this moment, and more than anything felix doesn't understand why. he fucking hates it. he thinks about it until it makes him nauseous, and then he drinks to quiet the chaos. why. )
That day, in the arena, you stopped me. ( his voice is soft, spoken at ephemera's back. ) Why?