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[unlawful]

TEXT / VOICE / VIDEO / ACTION NOTE: felix generally responds to everything in text, even voice or video calls. expect 90% of his replies to be text-based regardless of urgency.

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[notleavingquietly]

I appreciate the attempt to convince me you don't want to be fucked from every angle and aren't a little jealous that I got to be.

I saw you, you do remember that, right?

[unlawful]

you're not 100% wrong but tbh dude i'd rather choke on a thousand rotten dicks than let anyone tie me up for any reason

( says the man who will literally let people choke and slap the fuck out of him during sex. )

and you saw me looking prim and pretty, yes
i've been through nastier than a mild concussion, it's nbd

[notleavingquietly]

I had issues with any sort of restraint for a long time. I still can't handle it beyond very limited circumstances.

Stop arguing with me about what is and isn't a big deal. You're brain damaged enough as you are.

[unlawful]

could've fooled me

ok, rude
what do you want from me, crais? my fucking blood pressure? x-ray evidence i'm not slowly dying from a brain bleed?

[notleavingquietly]

I like arguing with you. It's fun. I also like being aggressively concerned at people who don't know what to do with it. Call it a sadistic streak.

Could've fooled you about what and why?

[unlawful]

you need less migraine-inducing hobbies my guy

that you can't handle it
circumstances didn't seem that limited in that little open invitation i peeped on the network. i'm assuming the presence of your dom makes all the difference.

( he kind of gets that, if that's the case. there wasn't much he wouldn't have trusted ortez with. )

[notleavingquietly]

The presence of my dom is the specific circumstance. There were also safety elements in some of that.

[unlawful]

safe, sane, and consensual
that kind of trust is hard to earn

[notleavingquietly]

I mentioned that off at someone as short hand to inform him I thought he was missing some sanity and I got a lecture about Risk Aware Consensual Kink. It was irritating.

I trust Cyram with a lot of things, including that. I don't trust anyone in the way most of the people here seem to want to be trusted, or trust other people.

[unlawful]

different strokes for different folks and some folks like it fucked up
i hit skip on the majority of that shit by only fucking people who i kinda wanna murder and who kinda wanna murder me, makes things infinitely less complicated in the long run

you met him here? your dom?

[notleavingquietly]

I kind of want to murder everyone, and I kind of want to murder them more if I like them.

I met him here almost immediately after I arrived.

[unlawful]

you are the long-suffering type, aren't you? kinda do it to yourself though

touching
do you believe in fate?

[notleavingquietly]

It's possible I have a mild masochistic streak.

Absolutely not.

[unlawful]

look at us having shit in common

pure luck then? russian roulette and you hit the one bullet in the chamber?
you must love him

[notleavingquietly]

I am shocked.

I didn't realize we were specifically talking about him. In retrospect, fairly inevitable as the result of our individual actions to that point, who we are, and proximity.

Of course I love him. He's an asshole.

I also arranged someone who could take my contract in the event of his disappearance. The last time I lost someone I loved, it ended badly. I'd like to avoid a repeat performance.

[unlawful]

very practical of you
how bad we talking? you blow up another ship?

[notleavingquietly]

No, just my career. Tortured a couple of people and broke someone's neck for being between me and a console I needed to use.

[unlawful]

if all else fails, go feral
very deranged and sexy of you
personally i'm not on my evil and maniacal torturing a-game while i'm in the process of losing my shit so i can only imagine what that looked like on your end. is that why you fucked off from the peacekeepers?

[notleavingquietly]

No, when you're in the process of losing your shit, what you destroy is yourself.

I certainly didn't leave because of a logical and reasoned decision that they were immoral. My only priority was killing the person responsible and not letting the Peacekeepers kill me first.

[unlawful]

depends on where you start

i assume you got the guy and/or girl in the end
kinda tracks with everything else you've told me

[notleavingquietly]

Depends on where I start?

No. He wasn't actually responsible for Tauvo's death. I just needed ... a year or so to come down from my homicidal rage to realize that. Nice guy.

[unlawful]

you start low, you got a lot less to lose
a lot less further to fall, too

tauvo?

[notleavingquietly]

Yes, but at some point there is some inconvenient inevitability that comes back into play to complicate things.

My brother's name.

[unlawful]

inevitability is like that
comes for everyone eventually
kinda like karma

( sure as fuck came for him. )

if it wasn't his fault, whose fault was it?

[notleavingquietly]

As much as I would love someone to pin blame on and rage at, it was no one's fault. Just an accidental collision.